I want to try something new in my life. Start doing things that would me make happy and that would satisfy me, but behind my back someone is whispering and that keeps me stay to where I am right now. I do not know the state of my heart right now, I can’t even decide for myself and I’m letting other people to manipulate my life. It’s fine for me but sometimes it makes me feel sucks. I am being pressured by the situation which makes me feel dumped.