I’m having my anhedonia now; I don’t understand why is it that I am not that totally happy? Even with the blessings that God gave me, I am not that happy. Something is missing, I know what are those, but I’m having a hard time seeking for that lacuna – a space from which something is missing. All I want in my life is to become happy, but I know, that once I choose to be happy I need to face all the consequences which I am afraid to deal with. I’m trapped and I don’t know where to go and what to do. Help me!