My mind is all set and I have decided to pursue my plans in life. I do not know where to start, but I know God will guide me and He will show me the right direction to where I should go. I do believe God have plans for me, and I don’t know if His plans for me are the same as mine. But whatever God will give me, I will accept it with all my heart coz I know, He knows what’s best for me. After all the struggles and problems, I had encountered in my life in the first quarter of the year; I became matured and open-minded in everything about life. I’m surrendering my life to God now, I will follow Him in everything that He wants to happen in my life. Sometimes I can think of negative things that I wanna do to myself. Sometimes, I want to die so that everything will be okay. I’m just an ordinary person who gets tired too of life problems and trials. However, I have learned from it but there are situations that are hard to overcome. How I wish life is like a music player, where I can forward and rewind my life to the happiest moment and skipped those sad moments and memories. Well.. I know everything happens for a reason. I hope God will bless me and will guide me in any decisions that I will make in life.    

hi dur, long time no hear from you, no matter what dur, don't give-up, I've been to many problems and struggles too but giving up should not be our option, life is so hard I know but can also be sweet.. I may not have the same problems as yours, your problem might bigger than mine.. but believe that no matter how small or big our problem is... both are just the same, the only thing they differ is how we handle them.. I am not forcing you to believe that I am your loyal friend coz it only depends on you but no matter how far I am, I'll be always your friend who are willing to listen if you need someone to talk to.. be strong always dur.. struggles sometimes can make us stronger.. all problems have it's own ending.. ::"_"::

I'm happy to know that despite of every struggle you've encountered you still hang on to God... Life can be harsh sometimes but as you said everything has a reason... I just hope that you'll overcome those trials you are having right now... we might not see each other nor talk often but I hope this helps.. hehehe... Just continue to believe in HIM and everything will be okay... cheer up... :)